"You've got a line-maker"

Those were the words my husband spoke this morning, "You've got a line maker in there!" How cute is that? It has been the happiest morning of our life. A miracle has happened, and this is how beautiful it looks...

That's what my pee did this morning. Can you believe it? Even through all this joy, and heart warming bliss, there is obviously still worry and I want you to know I'm still a realist. I do know that there is a chance this could be an ectopic pregnancy. I do know there is an extreme high chance of a miscarry due to my PCOS, and high testosterone levels. I do realize (besides my Internet friends) I will not share this wonderful info with ANYONE until after my 12 week apt. But until then...

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I will be ecstatic! I've never seen a positive before. It looks so pretty, doesn't it? As you know I've been fighting with myself for about 5 days now on testing early or not. Everyday I would ask my husband if I could test and he would always reply, "No, why would you do that to yourself and risk a false negative?" I don't know why I wanted to do that to myself, I just did! Well last night, during the Olympics, I turned to him and asked if he thought it to be OK if I test in the morning (Sunday, i.e. 2 days before my next period.) He simply responded, "YES". Well, you would have thought I would have been happy getting the answer I wanted, but I wasn't. I was instantly terrified. Terrified that I now had the OK to potentially get heartbreaking news.

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Well all night I thought about it. In fact, I was wide awake at 5am with the urge to pee. I lied there for a good 20 min freaking out. I finally actually talked myself out of it. I got up, peed, and went back to bed. Well I couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to get up. I did however sneak back into the bathroom to grab a pregnancy test...just in case. I came downstairs and did my morning routine, let the dogs out, fed the dogs, and went for my morning tea. I sat down in front of my computer to check up on blogs and I drank. There it was, the urge to pee again. I finally decided to go for it. Oddly enough, I decided to get a cup to pee in (which I never usually do). I got to the bathroom and then peed in the cup. I then looked at my watch and decided to do it all by the books, exactly 5 seconds in the pee, cover it up, lay it flat and wait exactly 3 minutes. When I waited I covered it up with a magazine. When 3 minutes passed I stood there. I looked at myself in the mirror and took a deep breath and began to slowly slide the magazine off.

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I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT THAT MOMENT FELT LIKE!!!

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Needless to say I ran upstairs to share the moment with hubs. Truly beautiful. The fact that he called my bun in the oven a "Line-Maker" is so adorable to me.

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I cannot thank you enough for all your wonderful prayers and thoughts. There is a true power in prayer. I will continue to pray for you all as I appreciate your continued prayer!

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Tiffany